So today is my darling husband's birthday. And so I post this song for him. He loves this song, and I can sort of see why, yet it's a completely jacked song. But he's a little special in the head... kind of like me. I think that's why we're so good together?
This is one of those songs for days that you have the blues. Well for me it is. For those days when you feel like you're not heard, not noticed, that you just don't matter. I could sit here and spout 'glass is half full' propaganda, but the fact is, everyone has days where the glass is just down right empty. Even me, merry sunshine happy face, has down days. This is one of my songs for those days.
Remember this song? Yeah. It's another brain taffy song. Took me FOREVER to find out who the artist was.. I always just managed to catch it on the radio.
I don't have anything intelligent to say about it...
Now I'm back with a song that refuses to leave my head. I don't know where I heard it this weekend at the beach, but I did. And I think the video is as much of a trainwreck as the song is.. well, the artist too. But good grief it gets stuck in your head entirely too easy. I'd say enjoy, but yeah.... :D
This song reminds me of alot of people I've known.. but not the good people. The analogy regarding the sun and the moon holds a special place with me, because it's the absolute truth. I live my life, I do good where I can.. and I don't expect a single damn thing in return. I do good deeds because that IS my reward; I love the joy and happiness that is a result of good being spread. If you do good deeds because you're waiting for a reward at the end, then you're doing it wrong. Period.
I watch how the moon sits in the sky on a dark night,
shining with the light from the sun,
but the sun doesn't the light to the moon
assuming the moon's gonna owe it one.
Makes me think of how you act to me,
you do favors
then rapidly you just turn around
and start asking me about things you want back from me.
I'm sick of the tension, sick of the hunger
sick of you acting like I owe you this.
Find another place to feed your greed
while I find a place to rest.
I'm pretty happy with who I am these days. It's taken awhile, and I'm not completely satisfied EVERYTHING, but overall, I'm pretty happy with how I've turned out. And this song really... sums it up. I haven't gotten here alone, I definitely had some hand-holding along the way, but I've worked hard on myself and my life to be where I am. I couldn't say it any better than they did:
"If I hadn't made me, I would've been made somehow..
If I hadn't assembled myself, Id've fallen apart by now.
If I hadn't made me, I'd be more inclined to bow.
Powers that be, Would have swallowed me up
But that's more than I can allow.
But...
If you let them make you, they'll make you Paper-Mache
At a distance you're strong, until the wind comes
Then you'll crumble and blow away.
If you let him fuck you there will be no foreplay.
Rest assured, They'll screw you complete, Until your ass is blue and grey!
You should make amends with you,
If only for better health.
But if you really want to live,
Why not try, and Make yourself?
Make yourself (Make yourself)
If I hadn't made me, I'd have fallen apart by now.
I won't let them make me..It's more than I can allow.
So when I make me, I won't be paper-Mache..
And if I fuck me...I'll fuck me in my own way."
For some people, music is just noise. Something to fill the time during a commute, background filler while they're cleaning/working out/doing homework, etc. But for some (like me), it's about what it makes you feel. The instruments, the lyrics, the emotional output it portrays and creates in it's listeners. I think if I spent the time, I could write my autobiography entirely out of song lyrics. Every piece of music I hear affects me in some way or another. From Vivaldi to MSI, Britney Spears to Soundgarden, I FEEL when I listen to music. I don't know another way to express it than that. Music is the voice of the soul. Sometimes that voice is calm and soothing, sometimes it's happy and joyous, sometimes it's melancholy and downtrodden, and sometimes it's full of hatred and anger. But they're all emotions nonetheless and that's the way the soul speaks it's piece. I've met a few people in my life who feel this way about music, and I always feel like I've found a kindred soul.
So. This is an angry song, but sometimes I'm angry (more often than some might think), and this song embodies all that irritation/frustration/hatred that I hold inside. This song can be especially be good for those times when you're angry at one specific person. The album this song comes from holds particular nostalgia for me. When it came out, I was having serious issues in my life: I was very unhappy with where I was, both physically and emotionally. One person in particular was the source of my misery, and when it was too much for me to take, I'd vent via this song.
"All of my hate cannot be found.
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming.
So, you can try to tear me down,
Beat me to the ground,
I will see you screaming."
One of my top 3 favorite songs of all time. It's my song. I even sang it (very drunk mind you) at my bachelorette party, on a stage, karoke style. Yeah, I'm a little fail, but it was a serious fun times. Cyndi Lauper is one of my heroes, has been since I was a very little girl.
Why is the song of the day you ask? BECAUSE I CAN.
I have a lot of respect for Lady Gaga. She does what she does, which is whatever she feels like doing, and she does it without regret or reservation. That's strength and confidence.
